at first it was just a little...but now, its a lot. i've been put on some super small dose of medication to control it but to be honest, it doesn't do much.
tonight t is completely out of control for no apparent reason. there isn't a thing i'm anxious or stressed about. maybe thats it...i'm stressed that i'm not stressed? who knows.
either way it sucks. when it gets bad (like tonight) i actually get numb. my arms and fingers get numb. sometimes i convince myself its a sign of diabetes but i eat so well and it only happens once in a great while....so basically, i'm just crazy.
its hard to talk about because if you don't have anxiety like this, its a hard thing to understand. when i do talk about it, it gives me anxiety thinking about what the person is thinking about what i am saying. vicious circle right?
anyways. i'm going to bed early tonight in hopes i will wake up well rested and ready to go tomorrow. here's hoping! if you have anxiety like me, go see someone. anything helps, i promise!
hahaaha.
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